However it is the time of year to sit down and evaluate what I want out of the coming year. Some things haven't changed from last year: I still want to get published and I still want to act. I do want to make a bit more of an effort in regards to my faith this year. Last year was a bit of a tough one. Quite a few ups and downs, can't say I'm sad to see the end of it but I also can't say it was any worse than other years I've lived through.
I want to strengthen my faith, I'm just not sure I'm really ready to step back into church, however I do think my kids need me to and I think hubby needs to if he wants to get the worship album he's working on finished.
Sometimes it's just not all about you, or me as the case might be. Sometimes the motivation I think comes once you make a decision to do something. From where I'm standing at the moment I hope this is the case because right now the thought of having to make new friends and explain myself and my sometimes unconventional lifestyle to others seems draining and I'm not even doing it yet just thinking about it.
I have been praying more but I still don't feel as connected in as I once did. I feel I have to try but at the same time there is a part of me that struggles to believe it will make any difference. However I will keep plodding along in the hope that feelings and faith will catchup with my actions.
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Praying that the Lord continue to draw you closer to Himself, in His timing. He Himself is much more important than any church.
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